Some of you may have noticed that my blogging has been less frequent lately and that some recent posts have been reruns. The long and short of it is that I’ve been running on fumes. Last year was a year of great blessing for our family, as the Lord made it possible for us to become homeowners again. Like the rest of you, however, 2020 was filled with challenges.
There are times in our lives when we experience multi-layered trials; it’s not one big thing, but many difficulties layered on top of each other at the same time over a long period, imposing a wearying, at times, even, a crushing kind of weight. For me, it’s been a year of many kinds of stress, fatigue, and multiple health struggles. As an exhausting year neared its end, my father died in November. Three days later, I tested positive with COVID, which struck where it hurt me the most–at my energy level–leaving me with exhausting fatigue for several weeks. I’m still tired. Recently, I ran into a former neighbor at Home Depot who happened to have the virus at the same time I did and, while comparing notes, we both realized that neither of us is back to full energy.
Additionally, I’ve been undergoing a number of tests to determine if there is a physical, non-stress cause behind my gradual increase in migraine headaches over the past few years. When I realized my headaches had reached a frequency of three per week, it was time to bring this to my doctor’s attention at my annual physical. While no tests have discovered anything connected to headaches, a brain scan revealed that I had a very small stroke in the back of my brain at some time in the recent or distant past. It’s impossible to ascertain the timing, since I have never had this particular test before and, therefore, there’s nothing to use for comparison. Thankfully, it was very small and in the part of the brain that controls balance and coordination, not thinking and communication. For this, I’m exceedingly thankful. Still, to be honest, it is disconcerting to say the least to have had a stroke (even a very small one) and not know it was happening. So now there is a new motivation to keep an eye on blood pressure and cholesterol, in order to prevent future ones. On top of that, I’ve also been in physical therapy for severe neck, shoulder, and upper back pain which began in January. According to my therapist, under a time of severe stress, muscles that have been compensating for a lifelong problem with rounded shoulders and forward head, i.e. poor posture, finally said, “Enough is enough!” A nerve block to the back of my head has brought relief to the headaches, and the physical therapy is slowly restoring muscular health. Progress is slow, but things are moving in the right direction. I’d appreciate your prayers as I continue to learn to accept the difficulties and weaknesses which slow me down and make me feel less productive. The Lord’s ways are best. We know this, but sometimes we all need a reminder.
The Scripture that has been feeding my soul and nurturing my spirit these days reminds me of the strengthening grace that belongs to us in Christ.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Cor. 12:9-11
I’d appreciate prayer when you think of it. As always, with all the blogs out there I’m humbled that you read mine.